Let him Fly – Camber Sands Portrait Photography

A while back I wrote A Letter to my Son – it was a letter to my eldest boy inspired by Letters to our Children. I am totally blessed that I have another son, he is C shaped and recently celebrated being four years new.

Camber Sands Portrait Photography by Emma Louise Photo

One morning a couple of weeks ago the sun was shining so I asked him if he wanted an ice cream, he said yes. I asked if he wanted an ice cream on the beach. He said yes. So we did the school drop off and headed to Camber Sands. I just happened to have his super suit in the car as well as ice cream funds…

Totally epic isn’t he? I think he deserves a letter too.

My Little C,

You are FOUR years old. I can’t believe that you’ve been you for 48 whole months. Time has whizzed past and your birthday has crept up on us. But hey, you know even though you’re a proper big boy now you will ALWAYS be my baby.

I’m struggling slightly at the moment my lovely boy, not with the fact that your feet are just one size off of your bigger brother’s or that you Never. Stop. Eating, or even that every single night at around 1am you will come into my bed and starfish yourself in the centre of it – usually upside down with your feet in my face.

No, I am struggling because in a couple of days you’ll be finishing pre school. We’ll no longer go to the wonderful nursery that you and your siblings have been a constant presence in for the past decade, and in less than two months I will lose you forever; you’re starting school.

Melodramatic? Maybe a little. But you are my third baby, my youngest baby, my last baby. I’ve already waved two of my kids off in the playground with a massive knot in my stomach with tears in my eyes on the rite of passage known as The First Day of School.

I know it how much my heart will hurt that day. I know you will change, you will become an even bigger boy – a school boy. I know that you will soon make new friends, you will love learning, you will make your teacher laugh. She taught your brother too and often tells me how she misses him, she’s so excited to have you in her class.

Can I tell you a secret? I don’t really want to share you. I want you to stay at home with me and be my friend, and make me laugh when thirty seconds after you’ve finished breakfast you ask me if it’s lunch time yet. I don’t want the little voice beside me in the car to not be there asking me “Mum, can I tell you a joke?”. It’s the same joke every single time but heck it’s a funny joke.

I am struggling with the fact that soon I’ll have all of my kids in school five days a week. For almost thirteen years this has never happened. At least one of you has always been there by my side nearly all the time. I have never really had time for me. I’m not sure I’ll know what to do with myself – don’t get me wrong I have big plans for sleep and gym classes. Well maybe I’ll start with sleeping and take it from there.

I know I need to let you go.

I know you will be amazing, and you will make me as proud as your brother and sister do.

I know that you are ready to fly, my little superhero.

Mumma loves you, all the world.

xx

Location – Camber Sands

Callum’s Superhero Suit – Superkids Capes Etsy

Vest – George at Asda

Shorts – Little Bird Clothing by Jools Oliver at Mothercare